https://www.refractinghope.com/life-with-ptsd daily 0.75 2024-05-26 https://www.refractinghope.com/life-with-ptsd/casing-the-joint-with-post-traumatic-stress-disorder monthly 0.5 2021-02-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1583128645403-EL9GGUUMY1HQZBMOEP50/target-755802_1920.jpg Life with PTSD - Casing the joint with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1583128809336-36122N9Z2972EK6QW5VC/nicole-y-c-10756wPwS5A-unsplash.jpg Life with PTSD - Casing the joint with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder - I never ever relax… https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1583128430506-0I6S2891DR6N1N134BDZ/pexels-408503.jpg Life with PTSD - Casing the joint with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1583128510372-4LFBIAUJNNRN0ZWX1BQK/meg-RTRAptk-iLk-unsplash.jpg Life with PTSD - Casing the joint with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder https://www.refractinghope.com/life-with-ptsd/dissociation-social-situations monthly 0.5 2021-02-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1583129033605-JDMHWTVJEVI8IXIMN69G/shutterstock_66750181.jpg Life with PTSD - Dissociation - Social situations https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1583129293502-HBKODR6ONUQKSNNS4O72/gautam-krishnan-Ryrg8skMoyY-unsplash.jpg Life with PTSD - Dissociation - Social situations - Helpful https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1583128960739-AW1CY6X66A5JTIVDU5N7/monkey-3970522_1920.jpg Life with PTSD - Dissociation - Social situations https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1583129148897-GOIRCNT909SGCWFJEIPQ/flamingos-1335042_1920.jpg Life with PTSD - Dissociation - Social situations - Not helpful https://www.refractinghope.com/life-with-ptsd/dissociation monthly 0.5 2021-01-10 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1583382119174-MSA136IV7RU4GQOLSUXV/pikwizard-ea649c203a1f1c7f55a617f737f1e7f3.jpg Life with PTSD - Dissociation https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1583382798134-SCK0FDTSXNCXF5KYRRV3/pikwizard-199abdf8636bbc598a70b8b55a94cf14.jpg Life with PTSD - Dissociation https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1583383648325-BOHU6N6W23XHVOLZ2NRZ/shutterstock_663913726.jpg Life with PTSD - Dissociation https://www.refractinghope.com/life-with-ptsd/ptsd-in-a-pandemic-1-impact-of-childhood-trauma monthly 0.5 2021-02-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1584514509451-0DVG33DDRRS7VQM0AU3X/supermarket-665049_1920.jpg Life with PTSD - PTSD in a pandemic 1 (COVID-19 in Australia): Impact of childhood trauma https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1584513667307-CSB04FOLDS0TTQ29O9NC/spooky-2580619_1920.jpg Life with PTSD - PTSD in a pandemic 1 (COVID-19 in Australia): Impact of childhood trauma https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1584514570978-7BJE74UHLL8IECNHCGDW/person-washing-hands-3943909.jpg Life with PTSD - PTSD in a pandemic 1 (COVID-19 in Australia): Impact of childhood trauma https://www.refractinghope.com/life-with-ptsd/ptsd-in-a-pandemic-2-preparing-for-a-pandemic monthly 0.5 2021-02-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1584515571654-OOVKYR7X8STN3H5LP3M9/white-toilet-paper-191845.jpg Life with PTSD - PTSD in a pandemic 2 (COVID-19 in Australia): Preparing for a pandemic https://www.refractinghope.com/life-with-ptsd/ptsd-in-a-pandemic-3-chaos-and-ptsd-dont-mix monthly 0.5 2021-02-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1584516187360-JUPK5CXUCH2WL2S7XOM8/woman-holding-face-mask-3902883.jpg Life with PTSD - PTSD in a pandemic 3 (COVID-19 in Australia): Chaos and PTSD don't mix https://www.refractinghope.com/life-with-ptsd/abuse-cycles-child-to-adult monthly 0.5 2021-02-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1585718702066-QXE29Q4ZYC08AOSHNCAZ/punch-316605_1280.jpg Life with PTSD - Abuse cycles - Child to adult https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1585718786240-4OJ8NTALXO6VBQ0FIBE4/silhouette-of-woman-standing-on-rock-near-body-of-water-3751387.jpg Life with PTSD - Abuse cycles - Child to adult https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1585718675332-FN1YHDBBMQ76CZI79OGO/chain-590773_1920.jpg Life with PTSD - Abuse cycles - Child to adult https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1585718823956-HG4BUUWJKUNISWU21RGI/sparkling-wine-1030754_1920.jpg Life with PTSD - Abuse cycles - Child to adult https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1585718731328-1RT221MY3IUS3JZ2VXQS/water-droplet-digital-wallpaper-1100946.jpg Life with PTSD - Abuse cycles - Child to adult https://www.refractinghope.com/life-with-ptsd/flashbacks-what-are-they-like monthly 0.5 2021-02-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1585805092579-GFBLUSNUV9XALRTMOLB3/grayscale-photography-of-person-at-the-end-of-tunnel-211816.jpg Life with PTSD - Flashbacks - What are they like? https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1585809015493-CO2WSPZSE06A1BI6PNW5/window-1125008_1920.jpg Life with PTSD - Flashbacks - What are they like? https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1585805147547-C9E2Y47W680NRNZMJAKL/write-4491416_1920.jpg Life with PTSD - Flashbacks - What are they like? https://www.refractinghope.com/life-with-ptsd/inside-my-chaotic-head monthly 0.5 2021-02-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1587357825371-UQX2FUT464RS2VWYADAV/stress-3853148_1920.jpg Life with PTSD - Inside my chaotic head https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1587357682514-ITLUPW87ZV623X6UDXGY/fence-470221_1920.jpg Life with PTSD - Inside my chaotic head https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1587357735531-MWRKW8TAKEQOK8FA015W/wallet-1010601_1920.jpg Life with PTSD - Inside my chaotic head https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1587358262927-EYWW9WGQF0B5OP59KGTU/rex-pickar-9RKmE8RYYlk-unsplash.jpg Life with PTSD - Inside my chaotic head https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1587358620242-J58G0UTVJ0RV6VNWDH8R/monochrome-photo-of-wooden-floor-2574603.jpg Life with PTSD - Inside my chaotic head https://www.refractinghope.com/life-with-ptsd/ptsd-communication-and-covid-19 monthly 0.5 2021-02-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1589262100549-EABHUKCT63TN39UA741V/adult-alone-anxious-black-and-white-568027.jpg Life with PTSD - PTSD, communication and COVID-19 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1589262024945-RKE9RVZM9MRHMPQNIN5S/people-2600578_1920.jpg Life with PTSD - PTSD, communication and COVID-19 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1589261775257-8JSE91YDF8MDAN2R7T7V/eye-4563356_1920.jpg Life with PTSD - PTSD, communication and COVID-19 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1589261922407-K832OI4F7YI85CSYUUU5/iphone-410316_1920.jpg Life with PTSD - PTSD, communication and COVID-19 https://www.refractinghope.com/life-with-ptsd/a-covid-19-fog monthly 0.5 2021-02-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1593921458903-CR96K0HZV8P1SK1OKLDJ/paper-755551_1920.jpg Life with PTSD - A COVID-19 fog - WHAT WOULD HAPPEN TO WORDLESS HOPE? https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1593921522141-3227TLOTRB97UF2ULWEK/stefano-pollio-ZC0EbdLC8G0-unsplash.jpg Life with PTSD - A COVID-19 fog https://www.refractinghope.com/life-with-ptsd/two-faced-lack-of-affect monthly 0.5 2021-02-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1597032518917-B5S6PF5FU0LJTA657MA2/fotografierende-vDR2n8vCKnA-unsplash.jpg Life with PTSD - Two faced: Lack of affect https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1597032546045-X3YQ1FV0EQWZZOU95IHQ/mask-3488529_1920.jpg Life with PTSD - Two faced: Lack of affect https://www.refractinghope.com/life-with-ptsd/masks monthly 0.5 2021-02-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1599616406232-S8QGKBWW63ZWX8G4GI74/shawn-ang--GecKzfG_3Y-unsplash.jpg Life with PTSD - Masks - Not innocent fabric https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1599455879364-SIPPD35T40E9D9K56RRE/face-mask-5067668_1920.jpg Life with PTSD - Masks - Not innocent fabric - However, as I try to adapt to this mask wearing world, this is what I have discovered: https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1599105633029-4WAGAADN9YDKOSIUGFXV/adam-niescioruk-Z9arfr0f248-unsplash.jpg Life with PTSD - Masks - Not innocent fabric https://www.refractinghope.com/life-with-ptsd/i-am-jumpy monthly 0.5 2021-03-23 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1605753912652-W52KGUPT4XSMOA9WR95L/window-with-broken-glass-2724373.jpg Life with PTSD - I am jumpy https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1614743516235-7X81TQPCGYHW1KBMZ978/girl-5138908_1920.jpg Life with PTSD - I am jumpy https://www.refractinghope.com/life-with-ptsd/be-kind monthly 0.5 2021-02-06 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1611634706447-W9IDON1XUJP7O6MOEIO0/pexels-ma%C3%ADra-morelle-4326227.jpg Life with PTSD - It is only kindness that makes sense - Ditch insensitive or disparaging comments, jokes, sarcasm, and turning difficult situations into humour https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1611637429495-BXWHHBF5XF1TWR1U58N8/pexels-ekaterina-bolovtsova-6077326.jpg Life with PTSD - It is only kindness that makes sense - Don’t judge https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1611624791519-T3VPPK2OZ9UQK909E36W/sad-597089_1920.jpg Life with PTSD - It is only kindness that makes sense - Journeys are harder for some https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1611625112774-FDHC8DPNCP65OO2YF2WY/pexels-whoiswasiq-2641773.jpg Life with PTSD - It is only kindness that makes sense - DON’T: https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1611626473032-6ZOY5OJR2VQAPVFP04NF/pexels-rodnae-productions-6003501.jpg Life with PTSD - It is only kindness that makes sense - I don’t need an armchair psychologist https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1611625032415-31BKVEZ81AKAKIY091YL/pexels-ekrulila-4200560.jpg Life with PTSD - It is only kindness that makes sense - DO: https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1611632417880-ZUC5EVRJJY209TCRTL6Q/dreamstime_s_142354395.jpg Life with PTSD - It is only kindness that makes sense - Don’t make assumptions https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1611625729603-71EZ4NL6CKEAK0SKC1VB/pexels-helena-lopes-1904105.jpg Life with PTSD - It is only kindness that makes sense - Teach me to be kind to myself https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1611635078938-4GH2ECHEU784MMP9SV2G/IMG_1137.JPG Life with PTSD - It is only kindness that makes sense https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1611639806124-8TBQUAFIUDFUICJXZF1T/siena-442971_1920+%282%29.jpg Life with PTSD - It is only kindness that makes sense - Create safe physical, social, emotional spaces https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1611625288932-A6KBPDXNYI1U9HI7RS1Q/pexels-cottonbro-6334060.jpg Life with PTSD - It is only kindness that makes sense https://www.refractinghope.com/life-with-ptsd/mind-what-you-say monthly 0.5 2021-05-10 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1616474451970-J4B132V3LLY7CO91YL85/books-4158244_1920.jpg Life with PTSD - Mind what you say: Responding to disclosures of PTSD or child abuse - Do not know what PTSD is, but think they do https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1616474586286-JCZ5NPY8B9TDHRJMRLS8/panel-2083865_1920.jpg Life with PTSD - Mind what you say: Responding to disclosures of PTSD or child abuse - Unsure how functional I am https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1616474186358-DF6AOXIWJZL3TAETWU6W/stop-565609_1920.jpg Life with PTSD - Mind what you say: Responding to disclosures of PTSD or child abuse - Attempt to avoid the subject and/or me https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1616910426833-18QKCJISPXK9GIFJGACK/Untitled+design_tort.png Life with PTSD - Mind what you say: Responding to disclosures of PTSD or child abuse - Mind what you say - it makes a difference https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1616474104704-8FVH37CGNBKQ6Z41MWLN/cry-2673270_1920.jpg Life with PTSD - Mind what you say: Responding to disclosures of PTSD or child abuse - Disclose details of their own abuse history (often triggering to me), then ask me to share my story (possibly triggering to them) https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1616474033044-P9FZA6272DGWEVRJXYME/sculpture-2209152_1920.jpg Life with PTSD - Mind what you say: Responding to disclosures of PTSD or child abuse - A barrage of intrusive questions https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1616474232881-JNLZAZXQMCYJVJPMAW9F/talk-457540_1920.jpg Life with PTSD - Mind what you say: Responding to disclosures of PTSD or child abuse - Often well meant, but not thought out https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1616474410231-8WTEZHUN1KIH0IPL1RUU/gallery-2932005_1920.jpg Life with PTSD - Mind what you say: Responding to disclosures of PTSD or child abuse - Try to force perspective by comparing me to others https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1616474620451-7RVLRKDO6FRM3G89K8XE/hold-544519_1920.jpg Life with PTSD - Mind what you say: Responding to disclosures of PTSD or child abuse - Acknowledge my pain even if they disagree, respectful, don’t force their opinions on me, question rather than assume, keep confidentiality, know when to back off, support where they can https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1616474279214-SSK2Q76JJLQ650LT5Y9N/egg-583163_1920.jpg Life with PTSD - Mind what you say: Responding to disclosures of PTSD or child abuse - Challenge my memories, beliefs and response to my abuse https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1616474363559-XHP5N4NC1WSSKOR8YF0J/frustrated-2681484_1920.jpg Life with PTSD - Mind what you say: Responding to disclosures of PTSD or child abuse - See me as a problem to be dealt with https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1616648297130-9OURV081R7383G5551Q6/leather-seats-2412068_192_2.jpg Life with PTSD - Mind what you say: Responding to disclosures of PTSD or child abuse - Automatically assume I need therapy, and eager to pass on their therapeutic advice (may or may not be useful) https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1616474548681-LSXXQRJQF9S1U121PUPH/knight-2565957_1920.jpg Life with PTSD - Mind what you say: Responding to disclosures of PTSD or child abuse - Want justice https://www.refractinghope.com/life-with-ptsd/covid-19-rapid-antigen-tests-rats-and-ptsd monthly 0.5 2022-02-03 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/3754139f-92a6-4bc2-a4f1-a17a33602a40/annie-spratt-fWf2f6NXuXI-unsplash.jpg Life with PTSD - Covid-19 Rapid Antigen Tests (RATs) and PTSD - Make it stand out Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/25f5e0c6-caa6-44e3-a33b-dac424fccd69/annie-spratt-5T_UHYJh6NM-unsplash-1.jpg Life with PTSD - Covid-19 Rapid Antigen Tests (RATs) and PTSD - 1) They’re stressfully complicated https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/16b0c68d-71f8-4309-bdc2-ed0c3ecde881/1.png Life with PTSD - Covid-19 Rapid Antigen Tests (RATs) and PTSD - 2) They’re outside my budget and hard to get https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/e81091e2-15d2-4e61-b169-eb27f6b378e8/2.png Life with PTSD - Covid-19 Rapid Antigen Tests (RATs) and PTSD - 3) Free doesn’t work for me, if they aren’t usable https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/c583f124-e68d-41ce-a90a-e885bd19792c/6.png Life with PTSD - Covid-19 Rapid Antigen Tests (RATs) and PTSD - However, due to someone’s generosity, I am given some saliva RATs! https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/0118fac6-02d3-4aef-b968-38c7bc81c268/10.png Life with PTSD - Covid-19 Rapid Antigen Tests (RATs) and PTSD - Saliva tests, clearly, are by far the best RAT for me. https://www.refractinghope.com/life-with-ptsd/poor-relationships-with-robots monthly 0.5 2022-09-06 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/b0afd546-7b35-49ac-8fe3-4244a5fbc5d4/3.png Life with PTSD - Poor relationships with robots: Navigating automated appointment notification processes - Less work for the robot. Less phone calls for the hospital. Less stress for me. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/8280872d-aa55-4378-9bb6-26fbdf79b961/1.png Life with PTSD - Poor relationships with robots: Navigating automated appointment notification processes - The SMS appointment reminder from my GP clinic is smooth sailing – just an instruction to turn up at [this time] on [this day] to see [this doctor]. Reply yes/no. Ring/click on this link if you want to reschedule. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/05b37885-0953-433d-9b6d-42d51221a116/6+%282%29.png Life with PTSD - Poor relationships with robots: Navigating automated appointment notification processes - Has the machine somehow lost my reply? Misunderstood it? Or simply failed to acknowledge it? Will some technological failure mean I’ll lose this appointment (which I’ve waited months for)??? https://www.refractinghope.com/life-with-ptsd/my-centrelink-manual monthly 0.5 2022-09-06 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/9da9d663-baf6-48cb-909d-3dbdb627845c/5.png Life with PTSD - My Centrelink manual - First, “assets”. 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But they are not therapeutic - PTSD means I don’t deal with stress well and I struggle to control my emotions. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/2ce35e30-3139-45cf-bdc6-ce4d50ab788b/13.png Life with PTSD - They are beloved. But they are not therapeutic - Even if I was able to ignore the emotional and physical impacts of pet parenting, I cannot ignore the financial impact. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/fc8564f8-c886-40d4-b8d4-e6950ee491dd/14.png Life with PTSD - They are beloved. But they are not therapeutic - Meanwhile, self-doubt bubbles inside me, feeding my fears, stained by my traumatic past. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/4d8e70f2-ac79-48e2-8a6c-1bd7c0d1289b/2.png Life with PTSD - They are beloved. 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For my daddy will not listen And my mummy shuts her eyes. https://www.refractinghope.com/trigger-warning/i-want-a-hug monthly 0.5 2021-02-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1591418414348-J1WRGA7RPO93DJ6JRAGZ/black-spider-graphic-2665108.jpg Trigger Warning - I want a hug I want a hug With nice special hands That don’t hurt Not the yucky special ones Like spiders Going up my legs https://www.refractinghope.com/trigger-warning/faces-hacked-into-my-heart monthly 0.5 2021-02-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1592535633150-EHUO77HSDE2GH85TLU15/annie-spratt-XQpXgdG2CXg-unsplash.jpg Trigger Warning - Faces hacked into my heart https://www.refractinghope.com/trigger-warning/the-taste-of-death monthly 0.5 2022-09-12 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1dbb97b8-444f-4a08-805b-32eddf5ec136/12.png Trigger Warning - The taste of death - I learnt the taste of fight-for-your-life terror and how it changes tastebuds until nothing tastes good. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/5389208e-fbed-4a41-baeb-f9e87cbdfeec/5.png Trigger Warning - The taste of death - A shard https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/b6fc91a9-e54f-457c-aa3d-9894386db16d/1+%282%29.png Trigger Warning - The taste of death - A shard https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/95d07fe6-89f5-4fc7-8410-81ba423abc90/8.png Trigger Warning - The taste of death - A shard https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/b219595c-df1a-4bdb-a84a-b092c1ae6628/10.png Trigger Warning - The taste of death - A shard https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/9d075746-10a4-4a57-8419-ffcd521f9d36/9+%283%29.png Trigger Warning - The taste of death - A shard https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/d1b70c0b-3ee2-4406-a160-e86bd7392317/13+%282%29.png Trigger Warning - The taste of death - A shard https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/65fcf936-46de-473a-a1ac-21c103914418/12+%282%29.png Trigger Warning - The taste of death - A shard https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/4102eb06-858f-48f9-885f-295681fbc970/13.png Trigger Warning - The taste of death - A shard https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/db0534fd-6cb4-4188-af62-9189d19a00d7/6.png Trigger Warning - The taste of death - A shard https://www.refractinghope.com/trigger-warning/tag/impact+of+abuse monthly 0.5 https://www.refractinghope.com/trigger-warning/tag/child+abuse monthly 0.5 https://www.refractinghope.com/trigger-warning/tag/fear+of+death monthly 0.5 https://www.refractinghope.com/trigger-warning/tag/secret+abuse monthly 0.5 https://www.refractinghope.com/trigger-warning/tag/child+abuser monthly 0.5 https://www.refractinghope.com/trigger-warning/tag/post+traumatic+stress+disorder monthly 0.5 https://www.refractinghope.com/trigger-warning/tag/death+and+ptsd monthly 0.5 https://www.refractinghope.com/trigger-warning/tag/Hope+Gordon monthly 0.5 https://www.refractinghope.com/trigger-warning/tag/PTSD monthly 0.5 https://www.refractinghope.com/trigger-warning/tag/childhood+trauma monthly 0.5 https://www.refractinghope.com/trigger-warning/tag/abuse+dissociate monthly 0.5 https://www.refractinghope.com/trigger-warning/tag/abuse+coping monthly 0.5 https://www.refractinghope.com/trigger-warning/tag/terror+and+PTSD monthly 0.5 https://www.refractinghope.com/trigger-warning/tag/dissociation monthly 0.5 https://www.refractinghope.com/trigger-warning/tag/hope+gordon monthly 0.5 https://www.refractinghope.com/trigger-warning/tag/ptsd+fears monthly 0.5 https://www.refractinghope.com/trigger-warning/tag/post+traumatic+stress+disorder+and+fear monthly 0.5 https://www.refractinghope.com/trigger-warning/tag/post+traumatic+stress+disorder+death monthly 0.5 https://www.refractinghope.com/trigger-warning/tag/abuse+relationship monthly 0.5 https://www.refractinghope.com/trigger-warning/tag/explaining+fear monthly 0.5 https://www.refractinghope.com/trigger-warning/tag/inner+pain monthly 0.5 https://www.refractinghope.com/bits-and-pieces daily 0.75 2022-10-10 https://www.refractinghope.com/bits-and-pieces/what-matters monthly 0.5 2021-02-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1581042747164-N81II02RHFRUHCPAA94T/sagar-chauhan-fTJVWFwxMNY-unsplash.jpg Bits and Pieces - What matters - Did you know that ants are very strong? 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And she has been generous. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1583122550166-NBXC4S5VZ570BAELIVRI/lightning-during-nighttime-1118869.jpg Bits and Pieces - Loss of hope - There is loud ripping sound https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1583122505893-YWSSUJRZRJRTJWM6OOSB/water-splashing-from-a-person-in-black-workers-boots-2929284.jpg Bits and Pieces - Loss of hope - Christmas day https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1583122657189-G0SZWOO4CDEPT7JSXYGZ/shutterstock_386902225.jpg Bits and Pieces - Loss of hope - Sit and look at food https://www.refractinghope.com/bits-and-pieces/locating-grief monthly 0.5 2021-02-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1583123823562-GMQ233D30O4DP316Y1F2/person-running-near-street-between-tall-trees-878151.jpg Bits and Pieces - Locating grief https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1583123337830-01C8M442QC5F52JFDJNX/dreamstime_s_24133703.jpg Bits and Pieces - Locating grief https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1583123139178-HXX1HTGRYC13HNJNFG7A/darren-welsh-zBU8dMscx4M-unsplash.jpg Bits and Pieces - Locating grief https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1583123730080-SLASQINFOIDFRGP7IU5J/butterfly-in-hair.jpg Bits and Pieces - Locating grief https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1583123591901-1LROFDI9UIU3UC593PME/ian-parker-UnoXP7nxwiI-unsplash.jpg Bits and Pieces - Locating grief https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1583123430105-7G7SW0JRG5GKQETZT9KY/shutterstock_1420761872.jpg Bits and Pieces - Locating grief https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1583122994521-CX2RCF0V8HT2TSLVJ03M/broken-2091023_1920.jpg Bits and Pieces - Locating grief https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1583123272378-JPYFJG2CQB1KSZC12ICH/https___www.lifeofpix.com_wp-content_uploads_2014_05_Life-of-pix-old-pictures-Karolina-Grabowska-.jpg Bits and Pieces - Locating grief https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1583123383186-YEVXO4TRI04YAXAG1X7I/shutterstock_1370640590.jpg Bits and Pieces - Locating grief https://www.refractinghope.com/bits-and-pieces/hope-is-blue monthly 0.5 2021-02-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1589780888037-RCRULQ25SHUDJJ4VHI1J/forest-fire-2268729_1280.jpg Bits and Pieces - Hope is blue https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1589867084824-4C2B23G3CLMA6CH8D2Y7/IMG_0460.jpg Bits and Pieces - Hope is blue https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1589780853212-3BM1PG59XT0OH9NJRG0N/smoke-4551271_1920.jpg Bits and Pieces - Hope is blue https://www.refractinghope.com/bits-and-pieces/jesus-two-girls-and-wolf monthly 0.5 2021-02-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1592198144408-P4W9GCDHKXLH4FA5AX7E/christmas-2871064_1920.jpg Bits and Pieces - Jesus, two girls and Wolf https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1591768104240-4DX9FEQP2OC67SVMYF46/jesus-christ-4676641_1920.jpg Bits and Pieces - Jesus, two girls and Wolf https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1591768142107-YPRJ8WEJFS7RIP6STCWA/face_2.jpg Bits and Pieces - Jesus, two girls and Wolf https://www.refractinghope.com/bits-and-pieces/a-virus-of-filth-living-side-by-side-with-obsessive-compulsive-disorder-a-reflection monthly 0.5 2021-02-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1592537083108-LX42HCQO3E0HKIZHXBSE/gift-3587234_1920.jpg Bits and Pieces - A virus of filth. Living side by side with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder: A reflection https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1592535300059-ZL2LV9ISB7AD2C92XJRC/disinfectant-5032675_1920.jpg Bits and Pieces - A virus of filth. Living side by side with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder: A reflection https://www.refractinghope.com/bits-and-pieces/living-on-an-edge-no-one-would-want-to monthly 0.5 2021-02-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1592711537231-8JCK2K1VX0KSHAX4EA0J/daniel-jensen-NMk1Vggt2hg-unsplash.jpg Bits and Pieces - Living on an edge no one would want to https://www.refractinghope.com/bits-and-pieces/the-rebel-without-a-cause monthly 0.5 2021-02-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1594098541490-WZN60SRGGKAJZFTH7T4F/wolf-1352242_1920.jpg Bits and Pieces - The rebel without a cause - In my silence, I say - Take care. One day you could be my cause https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1594261061461-V61UAFFIJ3DNUUBI0PCN/dreamstime_s_95998995.jpg Bits and Pieces - The rebel without a cause https://www.refractinghope.com/bits-and-pieces/bits-of-joy monthly 0.5 2021-05-10 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1597716227547-RSOCJC0CU0RNMIE93423/david-clode-13PjNBaDMcg-unsplash.jpg Bits and Pieces - Bits of joy https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1597716253376-WCXIJI0TMEC2OEXWJG7I/backlighting-4164218_1920.jpg Bits and Pieces - Bits of joy https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1597716279362-FJ5CT1O2UZUV5ED4LQ2C/piano-4533912_1920.jpg Bits and Pieces - Bits of joy https://www.refractinghope.com/bits-and-pieces/papa-centrelink-navigating-the-australian-welfare-system monthly 0.5 2021-04-25 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1617082113116-DBO6GNBJK2WQZ1HRYVWU/circle-4449338_1920.jpg Bits and Pieces - Papa Centrelink: Navigating the Australian welfare system - A walking-talking 30-year precursor to the Centrelink process which, similarly, circling between departments, generally ends where it started. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1617082083716-23RUVMDYWLYCLMRRWRI4/money-4902545_1920.jpg Bits and Pieces - Papa Centrelink: Navigating the Australian welfare system - “Keep arguing, and I’ll deduct more for the times you might have got money from nanna that I don’t know about. I’ll average across the last six months, to be fair.” https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1617081887797-92IPV38FM1DSKHT2L4VO/goldfish-178584_1920.jpg Bits and Pieces - Papa Centrelink: Navigating the Australian welfare system - Slippery-slimy as our goldfish, the conversation darts around confusingly – my current problem, my alleged crimes, my current problem… https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1617082597827-DL5SP4FC8ML8662AQH2H/homeless-3584319_1920.jpg Bits and Pieces - Papa Centrelink: Navigating the Australian welfare system - And what have I learnt? Money is language. And words can crush. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1617082035755-DWX3G3WEVBTU1VM7H42O/human-768961_1920.jpg Bits and Pieces - Papa Centrelink: Navigating the Australian welfare system - “Don’t forget who gave you this, puts the shirt on your back and dinner in your mouth. Without me, you’d be on the streets. Slip up, and you’ll be out.” https://www.refractinghope.com/bits-and-pieces/psychiatrist-number-xi monthly 0.5 2021-12-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1619412856548-KVCUF2BWPP9MWHBAGMDR/abstract-772556_1920.jpg Bits and Pieces - Psychiatrist number XI - Suspicion screeches. Fear’s eyes narrow. Wolf drools. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1619582235291-1ET46BVZUN35YJ7WFD9R/silhouette-2616777_1920.jpg Bits and Pieces - Psychiatrist number XI https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1619580689979-YRH40S10XXZHA7R2LH4S/stress-2883648_1920.jpg Bits and Pieces - Psychiatrist number XI https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1619579335958-ODU2FNCLMXZT4C4SHJQF/dark-1852985_1920.jpg Bits and Pieces - Psychiatrist number XI - Standing tall, with borrowed dignity, Fear, Suspicion, Wolf, and I successfully navigate the portal to hell (normal people would call this his office doorway) https://www.refractinghope.com/bits-and-pieces/christmas-is-cancelled monthly 0.5 2021-12-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1635050481692-S84QBIKJ72LN8GMS7CW3/13.png Bits and Pieces - Christmas is cancelled: A memory - No unhappiness vaccine for our family. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1635049629046-2C3ZIQAV7UDRYOYHKWC8/angel-1070418_1920+%282%29.jpg Bits and Pieces - Christmas is cancelled: A memory - I argued (aggressively) for the angel. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1635050126115-WOKBCFBUQQJBKDV3X3MI/6.png Bits and Pieces - Christmas is cancelled: A memory - I stared, awed. Although used to our mother’s off-beat ferocity, vaporising an entire global festival seemed extreme. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1635050323458-5MG865DX4XOH9KNEK92K/man-278819_1920.jpg Bits and Pieces - Christmas is cancelled: A memory - Meanwhile, our father strode menacingly around, upstaged by our mother’s unexpected behaviour, his eyes flashing as he took in the absence of fruit cake, ham and chocolate. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1635049557568-D1O5QQ3GIAHZKLCK70YK/star-2894031_1920.jpg Bits and Pieces - Christmas is cancelled: A memory - He insisted the star belonged at the top of the Christmas tree. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1635050000775-OH58WOELS292NVETJG1W/2.png Bits and Pieces - Christmas is cancelled: A memory - Despite our stress-riddled Christmases, enamoured by glitter and boxes, we were as happy as we ever got. But only briefly. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1635050404786-E857M69VE9SM4WOSW5QC/pot.png Bits and Pieces - Christmas is cancelled: A memory - With all hope for Christmas dead, the yelling in our house would be particularly spectacular, as after simmering for days, our father’s internal pot was about to boil over. https://www.refractinghope.com/bits-and-pieces/untouchable monthly 0.5 2022-09-06 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/fc6d00d7-354b-4983-aca5-beff65bf65a1/2.png Bits and Pieces - Untouchable - Yet. Yet. Remembering the pain of watching others hug as a child, I notice that this time, as families embrace, I turn my eyes away. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/42c7d6d0-c24e-41d2-93bf-5295119a815f/1.png Bits and Pieces - Untouchable - 2022. Now three years into this touchless world, as we move into post-covid ‘normal’, I have re-walked the journey of that rejected child – confusion, a blank indifference, a dull despairing longing which moves to barely contained tears, fear which moves to barely controlled aggression. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/ac56b726-37b5-4949-8ca9-3de3a0e9d491/animal-welfare-2372093_1920.jpg Bits and Pieces - Untouchable - It is like a limb ripped off https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/51b71754-c486-49f8-bce7-73a0cf4c539a/coronavirus-4972480_1920_RS.jpg Bits and Pieces - Untouchable - But, then came Covid-19 in 2020, it’s virus ridden tentacles suddenly jerking away all those hugs and pats and gentle hands in mine. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/8313b3e8-c982-40d3-9016-ea7a571d597e/pexels-itati-tapia-1261965.jpg Bits and Pieces - Untouchable - Where, a metre or so away, I stared silently, blank faced. https://www.refractinghope.com/bits-and-pieces/what-would-you-do-if-your-abuser-asked-for-your-help monthly 0.5 2022-09-17 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/0c804589-de88-4b74-ac69-e40dbfb92651/people-g8543a0bfa_1920_RS.jpg Bits and Pieces - What would you do if your abuser asked for your help? - Make it stand out Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/977d66a0-6ff6-4fe8-9f7f-848ae4df4b70/woman-gf7fda005a_1920_RS.jpg Bits and Pieces - What would you do if your abuser asked for your help? - Make it stand out Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference. https://www.refractinghope.com/bits-and-pieces/optus-cyberattack monthly 0.5 2022-10-13 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/7589346d-27eb-4de3-8b6e-c2076f68d353/hacking-ge2dc6ec01_1920.jpg Bits and Pieces - The Optus cyberattack through the lens of PTSD: blow by blow - Make it stand out Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/5602be7d-1bf6-4058-aeef-7812f0e1da68/cyber-security-g46c21f545_1920.jpg Bits and Pieces - The Optus cyberattack through the lens of PTSD: blow by blow - Make it stand out Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/c19199e2-c7ef-4282-af71-da043ec5cf6e/hacker-gb666454ac_1920.jpg Bits and Pieces - The Optus cyberattack through the lens of PTSD: blow by blow - Make it stand out Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/5f7e4c3c-f2d1-49b1-aa5e-5a8913eeee16/get-me-out-gd81e82aaa_1920.jpg Bits and Pieces - The Optus cyberattack through the lens of PTSD: blow by blow - Make it stand out Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/f5ffd1fb-650f-4b37-ab52-bdc41e64a2a2/cybersecurity-gd7f6c1df3_1920.jpg Bits and Pieces - The Optus cyberattack through the lens of PTSD: blow by blow - Make it stand out Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/901db2e9-04d4-47d0-862f-e642761653a1/anonymous-gd01243573_1920.jpg Bits and Pieces - The Optus cyberattack through the lens of PTSD: blow by blow - Make it stand out Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/8bdd8d00-b0fa-4474-af98-c37d1a0b2ebb/14+%286%29.png Bits and Pieces - The Optus cyberattack through the lens of PTSD: blow by blow - Make it stand out Whatever it 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I still wonder https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1618811634652-3CHXHJJRGPYZUY139DCZ/grandparents-2778661_1920_2.jpg Poetry - He is doing fine - You pushed neck strained Weak My body angled just slightly Willing itself bigger wider to shelter your eyes From greying hair More so than yours Age dotted skin The hand we both longed to hold Mine fierce trying to hold your life in always aware of the other and the need for four hands https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1614316466559-ANQYC38KAOIAONJPN8AR/eye-2635747_1280.jpg Poetry - He is doing fine - Then the pause That suck of air Different to yours Just a little harder Just a little Your eyes stronger than your whisper asked It spoke to me his breath Not to you Thank God I need you to be still He is doing fine Your body softened under my hands Eyes closed Mind hushed by your picture drawn from my words https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1614313018513-29ELOZPSS7XU6GDU2185/jonathan-borba-9Ov8ofh7URg-unsplash.jpg Poetry - He is doing fine - You do not remember it all I hope to God I remember His breath Your eyes Every one of those minutes Do I go there often? Often Why you? There was one ventilator you see but both of you And you were the younger By one year I am so sorry that desperate to save you there were no goodbyes Three of us harrowed I am so sorry that I lied He is doing fine https://www.refractinghope.com/poetry/silence monthly 0.5 2021-02-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1589337119806-BLU4CSBT301V8LZYUL9R/annie-spratt-EUfxH-pze7s-unsplash.jpg Poetry - Silence I am the homing pigeon who can never go home Drowning in “I’m sorry” I am the repellent child too often told to ‘go away’ Drowning in “I’m sorry” I am the outcast Judas hiding in the witness tree Drowning in “I’m sorry” And in the raw ugly wound Where there should be forgiveness there is silence Where there should be comfort there is silence Where there should be love there is silence. There is only silence. https://www.refractinghope.com/poetry/online-study monthly 0.5 2021-02-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1590730855600-CVZDUV2OB07K78AH2LFK/laptop-1337188_1920.jpg Poetry - Online study https://www.refractinghope.com/poetry/traitors monthly 0.5 2021-02-03 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1590731788746-6ETDWQVMMHVVNP05NB0C/tree-250355_1920.jpg Poetry - Traitors Sorrow wired into blood and soul Bethlehem sucked into heart shaped hole. Death – a gift forced between child’s lips A cup passed on from which to sip. Lifelines burnt from little hands Blown-glass world now dirty sand. Evil plays with mortal law: Life and death pass through the same door. Wolf howls long; lost children scream Adult starves on drunken dreams. I’m returning what never belonged to me Let’s all meet under the Judas tree. How I long at last to say: Father it is finished Mother it is finished. https://www.refractinghope.com/poetry/staff-meetings monthly 0.5 2021-02-03 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1590896430370-V8TRF0D26Q63XXVU823K/black-forest-cheesecake-704579_1920.jpg Poetry - Staff meetings https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1590896386284-RG9ESVERNL7BZZR6D2IE/adult-blur-boss-business-288477.jpg Poetry - Staff meetings https://www.refractinghope.com/poetry/a-few-of-my-unwanted-things monthly 0.5 2021-05-10 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1591418105079-OAWN0PRP787L7CM8FTCN/american-1239040_1920.jpg Poetry - A few of my unwanted things https://www.refractinghope.com/poetry/my-destroyed-head monthly 0.5 2021-02-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1591418564128-6UEA2YCQFSVRO4QW6YQ2/lights-163883_1280.jpg Poetry - My destroyed head https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1591418583967-27AELKCVTCKMHU804QQ8/chain-5013393_1920.jpg Poetry - My destroyed head https://www.refractinghope.com/poetry/kids-views monthly 0.5 2021-02-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1592536097383-AYUIDTRWK55EM4RIZXZ2/pink-green-and-purple-flowers-during-daytime-101472.jpg Poetry - Kid's views - Making it Better I am sad Sad is black clouds And no rainbow Red is my favourite colour Hold the flower petals up to the sun And look The sky turns pink Everything looks better when it’s pink https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1592536004099-TL0LLN7O8468TR6RQK0C/horse-547008_1920.jpg Poetry - Kid's views - Playing I hide behind the rocking horse And pick my nose And peer out At all the other children playing NICELY Not like me I don’t play nicely I pick my nose instead https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1592535910324-W8VB2OE938GQEDRNB0E5/sand-castle-1599216_1920.jpg Poetry - Kid's views - Beach Big empty beach The sand in my swimmers itches AND I cut my hand on long grass I never knew grass was sharp I never knew I did not like the beach https://www.refractinghope.com/poetry/dark-haunted monthly 0.5 2021-02-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1592536370641-PKN8ZFRSLFETJFTH58LW/fantasy-2530043_1920.jpg Poetry - Dark haunted https://www.refractinghope.com/poetry/enchanted-beach monthly 0.5 2021-02-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1592713554263-9PX8X7HFXENGG50NQ3HJ/beach-4481919_1920.jpg Poetry - Enchanted beach https://www.refractinghope.com/poetry/beast monthly 0.5 2021-01-10 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1594181711486-18ZEMFAY8U1W8QFU59IN/sighting-5024657_1920.jpg Poetry - Beast https://www.refractinghope.com/poetry/late-for-work monthly 0.5 2021-02-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1594261985682-1SIC5EEY23UAOY4F4GNG/crush-3672347_1920.jpg Poetry - Late for work https://www.refractinghope.com/poetry/what-haunts-the-night monthly 0.5 2021-02-03 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1594183199896-YIR5LLENIDYAIYUU0G75/weeping-3332113_1920.jpg Poetry - What haunts the night https://www.refractinghope.com/poetry/inside-deep-down-inside-of-me monthly 0.5 2021-05-15 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1621046538042-QTF3B1CTNHNZW06KADGU/Inside+deep_final.png Poetry - Inside, deep down inside of me - Make it stand out Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference. https://www.refractinghope.com/poetry/fury monthly 0.5 2021-02-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1594261665560-GUKLT10DBRCJ2TLT3SLU/fantasy-2615450_1920.jpg Poetry - Fury https://www.refractinghope.com/poetry/wolfish-rage monthly 0.5 2021-05-06 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1600664263592-YOZG6BRW8FIVF7LV30X3/wolf-4244435_1920.jpg Poetry - Wolfish rage https://www.refractinghope.com/poetry/powerless-for-my-own-good monthly 0.5 2021-02-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1600664404101-R23HOQQOBX1MIURYML35/food-1554003_1920.jpg Poetry - Powerless for my own good https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1600664375553-V2ZUC6TGERXE53MTCJU0/macro-1237308_1920.jpg Poetry - Powerless for my own good https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1600665423245-VTTCM7R9GN2JGT2W34KD/rope-1792189_1920.jpg Poetry - Powerless for my own good https://www.refractinghope.com/poetry/the-voices-who-steal-light monthly 0.5 2021-04-19 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1615700800257-60RISW7TTJMVJ1FMEVAT/The+voices_fnl.png Poetry - The voices who steal light https://www.refractinghope.com/poetry/un-peaced-version-1 monthly 0.5 2021-04-18 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1618377810709-KTLY7MQMF1TA58Q6BR0N/mystical-2069701_1920.jpg Poetry - Un-peaced (version 1) - Last night finally I was free of my agonised mind Yet Unpieced I had no peace https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1618622984968-Z3BE2AFUZTO5X9N9AD5W/5.png Poetry - Un-peaced (version 1) - Last night I had no mind Thought-freed I floated silent Oh, the silence https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1618377752589-R5AGHYV1XA2F4IF4LA3W/fantasy-4221435_1920.jpg Poetry - Un-peaced (version 1) - Without a mind Unchained from thought The silence Oh, that silence https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1618377670817-PWXHOYRI5AQS3UWJ6JIQ/women-471954_1280.jpg Poetry - Un-peaced (version 1) - A body without a mind last night I drifted light Unpieced finally I had peace https://www.refractinghope.com/poetry/un-peaced-version-2 monthly 0.5 2021-04-18 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1618622714900-OTBVHW8FHL52JBWWXMMH/6.png Poetry - Un-peaced (version 2) - Last night I dreamt and what a dream! https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1618623539882-M4GE5J9LEA7OFS2JF875/woman-3735257_1920.jpg Poetry - Un-peaced (version 2) - Finally at last my pain had ceased In pieces blessedly, I was at peace https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1618623655322-GDSWTMH6IBTT36X71R1R/7+%282%29.png Poetry - Un-peaced (version 2) - but now mindless to beauty drained of joy In pieces I would not find peace https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1618379978132-2MXHQPZ2LSD9MKVS7XRE/five.jpg Poetry - Un-peaced (version 2) - My eyes could not see, no brain told my nose of the roses beside the fish tank https://www.refractinghope.com/poetry/together-we-create monthly 0.5 2021-05-01 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1619320600178-TH0DASGGABPKALMVOM4F/Absolute+final.png Poetry - Together we create https://www.refractinghope.com/poetry/stuck-to-damaged monthly 0.5 2021-05-08 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1619397892980-FULOJPZXXOIZMEPUNQHL/Absolute.png Poetry - Stuck to damaged hearts https://www.refractinghope.com/poetry/pandemic-soup monthly 0.5 2021-12-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1627451129237-JB3P2OGMSHPU9RTESXDI/Pandemic+soup.png Poetry - Pandemic soup - Make it stand out Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference. https://www.refractinghope.com/poetry/beauty monthly 0.5 2021-12-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1634190476557-39Y7YJAWVMIWVJYIZPON/Hands+sky+1.png Poetry - Beauty - Fused ugly, PTSD and I fingers peeling scarlet clawed a charcoal sky grazing a glow barely remembered Should I die? We wondered https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1634189724557-Y009VH6949KT4HECMOKS/Puma+3.png Poetry - Beauty - Sleepless, Moon a one-eyed puma slinking sable lowered Tailing death Hurling stars Before Sun faith risen poked holes in our night https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1634189772647-7GG9SJLNSJE0897DMOG0/Mosaic.png Poetry - Beauty - And we crouch PTSD and I, Moon and Sun wearying Death Piecing light-stained shards Our mosaic in tattered dark Until dappled we know beauty https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1634020079516-X6JSY2EA9E1JVZ00RG0S/PTSD+crouch.jpg Poetry - Beauty - PTSD crouched, fingering the shards Useless pieces in cold hands hardened to survive in dark places Yet could not turn my light on https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1634018405003-MF13UFHJJBEWJ11E8N76/Grim+reaper_2.jpg Poetry - Beauty - Circling, Death paced drawing inky curtains over hope Expectant Bold Impatient Dauntless Dauntless https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1634103670506-EY0LCGKXH2WBI7227PV9/Turned+light.jpg Poetry - Beauty - Trauma turned my light out then shattered the bulb That tentative glow Snuffed https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1634106135595-SCSCGQ0OF0EY9AL5NQI8/Skin.png Poetry - Beauty - Blinded, I stumbled tracks light seeking unable to find my own Drawn by false sparks Little sadisms which inflamed then melted my skin Until light became a lie https://www.refractinghope.com/poetry/lockdown-4 monthly 0.5 2021-12-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1635474794182-F7PNNFL2NAMV9MTG7OGI/3.png Poetry - Covid-19 lockdown - Confined, my brain becomes a trap flashing far too often back I crave a hug, soft human skin A selfish thought that again reeks of sin Then, flipping, cringe from unwanted, dangerous hands Memories that Covid’s reaching, creeping fingers have fanned Inside, outside, nowhere is safe – just like before Fear an inescapable revolving door Nowhere to hide from these hunters, inevitable that I am found I am paralysed, cornered, run to ground Weariness heavy, I stare blankly in a daze My stalking future cloaked in haze https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1635475222053-X441ZX50XU1LGJ7P0PJ5/7.png Poetry - Covid-19 lockdown - Scanning the ABC reports, as the days blur together Covid’s cycle seems to drag on forever Post-lockdown and restrictions stretch past the weekend as we wait for the latest 28-day infection period to end And when it does, stained by my past, ‘freedom’ isn’t free for me Still hunted, I’m scared to go out, a trauma-formed life refugee Yet, I do go out when each lockdown is over and, I’d like to point out, moreover through smashing fear, I did take that bin out, helped others where I could, and ordered online Why? I’m surviving this pandemic because I have a mooring line A connection to someone who, steadfast, stays steadying me through these most awful of days An anchor. Imagine how impossible my life would be if I did not have that. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1635474971994-I1ADLMZU2SIU1SMR25IA/5.png Poetry - Covid-19 lockdown - A twenty second itch in my throat, tickle in my nose Chronic illness? The dust? Delta? I assess the risk ratios “Get tested”, we’re told, “for even the slightest sniffle even if you think it’s superficial A stick up 40 000 runny noses a day and this outbreak may end Join the testing queue or risk killing yourself or your friend” The people I love I imagine disabled or death masked Most never answer their phone, so cannot ask Grieving, aching, I ruminate obsessively I don’t want them to end up traumatised like me Friends ridicule, say I’m fearful, not brave Overlooking the overwhelming number of futures my soap-chapped hands are trying to save https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1635475057611-CB4LJ3GAYBZMPV61NNQJ/6.png Poetry - Covid-19 lockdown - “Stay still! Don’t move around”, we’re told, “to prevent the spread of this beast Keep others at bay, stay inside, and this outbreak will cease” Stuck on the four essential reasons to go out at all Should I check the mail? Walk round the block? Terrified, I do bugger all “Get vaccinated. Have the jab, and on Sunday, we’ll see where we’re at” Slightly comforted, at least I’ve already done that Then “Don’t go out”, we’re told, “BUT don’t shop online” Running low on food, I’m far away from fine My brain bleached stupid, my hands won’t work The nausea is worse, my nervous tick now a jerk And when I’ve done an online order (finally) two days wait to find someone has panic-bought yoghurt and zucchini https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1635474881921-XG49D9PAJT24IABGVV7E/4.png Poetry - Covid-19 lockdown - Adrenaline pulsing, fear coiled like a spring Father Delta an unimaginably threatening thing Present and past dangerously tangled and curled I’m overwhelmed in this nightmarish mutating world Delta more dangerous than him, because its invisible so even more unpredictable My fear-white lips masked as I take the bin outside Guilty, heart pounding, I scuttle out, then in, glassy eyed Don’t get sick, don’t harm anyone I should not breathe, nor should I be breathed on Don’t speak, I scream, my tongue silent deep inside (Even my own breath murdering my mind) https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1635474715675-NBFLFMGJR5O8DB7HPNED/2.png Poetry - Covid-19 lockdown - “The restrictions are stricter. Delta is different. We must do better than ever before” So, without three layers of cloth on my face, I’d now be breaking the state law because “Alpha is bad, Delta is worse” Death spelt in Greek in an invisible aerosoled burst Like an assault from behind, “it only takes seconds”, we are told (The thought stabbing my sanity threshold) The garbage bin beside the sink and floor tossed clothes start to stink My thoughts tangled, weave a madhouse each little fear a biting louse My locked down mind erases birds from the sky music a thorn scratching skin sanitised dry https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1635474632207-76GUT0TZV9W9EB37M3EZ/1.png Poetry - Covid-19 lockdown - I sit at home on my phone work out my 5km zone Then check the restrictions for my state which the daily press conference complicates The multi-state lockdowns are confusing me The rules are different for all three The case numbers soar, then dip, then soar Narrow eyed, I pace my grotty floor Volume on high, ipad clutched in one hand the CHO’s insights I too well understand as a creeping dread stirs my mind up A foreboding which just won’t let up https://www.refractinghope.com/poetry/sorrow-is monthly 0.5 2021-12-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/6c4bc69b-63a0-4d7e-98ba-128ab899c7c5/Sorrow+is.png Poetry - Sorrow is - Make it stand out Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference. https://www.refractinghope.com/poetry/caterpillar-karma monthly 0.5 2022-04-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/fde35f83-3ee4-4be9-8c3b-25a40f1ad19d/Caterpillar+karma.png Poetry - Caterpillar karma - Make it stand out Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference. https://www.refractinghope.com/poetry/may-your-2023 monthly 0.5 2023-01-11 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/bca6bee0-0aa9-45e1-bb4c-93d7eb3fca65/New+for+RH.png Poetry - May your 2023... - Make it stand out Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference. https://www.refractinghope.com/poetry/insane-grief monthly 0.5 2023-02-02 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/259ce200-96a9-473c-8280-1a869c63b6f6/Put+it+down+vs+1.png Poetry - Put it down to insane grief - Make it stand out Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference. https://www.refractinghope.com/poetry/poems-on-the-death-of-a-friend monthly 0.5 2024-05-09 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/c41a67f6-edd0-4e9a-8509-d13a84684170/3.png Poetry - Three poems on the death of a friend - 1# “Oh, this dying” https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/afdb9e0b-f32a-4fff-a6e1-1bdeb9359f4a/2.png Poetry - Three poems on the death of a friend - Visit 2 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Does anyone know how much this blood test costs? - Make it stand out Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1635313275361-7U9GGKG4LRO91BZ12VOS/6.png For Medical Practitioners - Does anyone know how much this blood test costs? - One blood test. 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The cost of a test is ?, until you go. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1635481408401-CRNRBAX2HL5YZEZJXY37/magic+wand.png For Medical Practitioners - Does anyone know how much this blood test costs? https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1635313186862-L2E96I2Q44E107EBC6F3/11.png For Medical Practitioners - Does anyone know how much this blood test costs? https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1635313119928-KQG5ZCGWA187MK1LWTX3/2.png For Medical Practitioners - Does anyone know how much this blood test costs? - Make it stand out Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1635313029598-JFYUVX2HW3DC2G8850F2/12.png For Medical Practitioners - Does anyone know how much this blood test costs? https://www.refractinghope.com/for-medical-practitioners/medicated-for-my-own-good monthly 0.5 2022-02-03 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/832adca6-d746-4414-91b6-d4af6c514fd5/time-lapse-photography-of-woman-standing-1231258_rs.jpg For Medical Practitioners - Medicated for my own good - And that is the exact reason why the good intentions of my psychiatrist unravelled. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/11713547-7ff9-440e-bfbf-0d627170d361/apartment-bed-carpet-chair-269141_rs.jpg For Medical Practitioners - Medicated for my own good - So, antipsychotic + antidepressant and months later I was a slow-motion fog-head slumped on the lounge, 10kg heavier, reading novels, and making up excuses for my sluggishness because of the stigma of being on an antipsychotic. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/e06e0ddc-fcd1-4b23-b0f0-3e1dba1c0cda/6.png For Medical Practitioners - Medicated for my own good - I grieve those years lost on my chemical road. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/0ab2eeb1-c57a-4d0b-ad27-1e17deb1255f/1_2.png For Medical Practitioners - Medicated for my own good - 14 years, 15 psychiatric medications. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/ebf1be33-4530-423c-83d6-0bc4d48941b5/6_2.png For Medical Practitioners - Medicated for my own good - So, four years on I was still taking my ineffective ‘upper’ with breakfast. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/57e2b9fc-a7d9-4aaa-bd1f-9fffe70c22e1/wine-g50330f0b6_1920_rs.jpg For Medical Practitioners - Medicated for my own good - Especially with a bottle of wine https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/f142a43a-6a2f-4717-9a8e-7d1db6691400/3.png For Medical Practitioners - Medicated for my own good - Those things fill drink-craving spaces. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/c0371dfd-d42c-43a5-b872-7bbd7e2f2922/anastasia-dulgier-g8AZXNVkbq0-unsplash_rs.jpg For Medical Practitioners - Medicated for my own good - Temazepam, Diazepam, Oxazepam, Lorazepam, and alprazolam, were variously added to my antidepressant. https://www.refractinghope.com/for-medical-practitioners/specialists-and-the-curveball-of-ptsd monthly 0.5 2022-03-13 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/58d15b96-b981-409e-9c08-86728c6766dd/18.png For Medical Practitioners - Specialists and the curveball of PTSD - All of which are problematic when it comes to medical consults. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1b5f5fd6-6382-4294-920c-2b1493ba5789/15.png For Medical Practitioners - Specialists and the curveball of PTSD - Make it stand out Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/596dc2f3-1cc4-40bf-883f-79372854a155/And+if+XXX+XXX+terminal.+%281587+%C3%97+1500+px%29.png For Medical Practitioners - Specialists and the curveball of PTSD - Hail specialists who… https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/0834689b-3739-446f-b6f6-5de80e374746/16.png For Medical Practitioners - Specialists and the curveball of PTSD - Make it stand out Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/b2034782-53f6-4fa5-b251-435361cab02c/2.png For Medical Practitioners - Specialists and the curveball of PTSD - My scrambled brain is a product of trauma, but I sound like a bumbling fool. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/b8f4c32c-57d6-457c-8824-79b862f21d4b/And+if+XXX+XXX+terminal.+.png For Medical Practitioners - Specialists and the curveball of PTSD - Make it stand out Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference. https://www.refractinghope.com/for-medical-practitioners/dying-for-an-mri monthly 0.5 2022-06-05 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/6e4e61a3-4c6f-406a-a997-3e65c09f2291/35.png For Medical Practitioners - Dying for an MRI: PTSD and scans - Make it stand out Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/d82ebf39-d9f1-4ea6-a208-495f73d8396b/1.png For Medical Practitioners - Dying for an MRI: PTSD and scans - Ideas for hospitals https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/269618ae-02f1-4907-ab41-013fe7204660/3.png For Medical Practitioners - Dying for an MRI: PTSD and scans - However, within moments of walking into the room, stunned, I found myself putting my head into a moulded plastic bit of the bed while my technician shoved hard foam wedges into every gap, immobilising me from the neck up. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/5c11e30a-3913-474a-902a-4a7ea3b6ac34/Untitled+design.png For Medical Practitioners - Dying for an MRI: PTSD and scans - But the entire building probably caught on because, due to my terrified repetitive squeezing (assuming the buzzer was broken), the buzz continued like an echoing scream, long after he trotted in. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/92fbd5f6-3866-41c5-8958-9daaf902c67c/18.png For Medical Practitioners - Dying for an MRI: PTSD and scans - Make it stand out Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/d639c042-fd5a-474d-aa2c-086a6fb8b9c8/12_1.png For Medical Practitioners - Dying for an MRI: PTSD and scans I wondered which of the childhood memories playing through my head, were playing across my technician’s screen as he watched the machine draw my brain. Did he see a child on a bed, wide eyed, listening for footsteps on carpet? https://www.refractinghope.com/for-medical-practitioners/not-another-pill monthly 0.5 2022-09-06 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/f9196fb4-38e6-4edc-ae06-e5ea4298715b/miguel-bruna-qKlUdr1qOR8-unsplash.jpg For Medical Practitioners - Not another pill!! - Pill 9 is a rock thrown from childhood, its claims of symptom relief an echo of his promises: https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/fcd14dc0-463b-4b17-b396-aeba39276d7f/16.png For Medical Practitioners - Not another pill!! - Nothing will ever change, things will only get worse, I will never escape. The future is bleak. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/1a3d19b6-effc-41ba-ac8e-566a53ac1222/9.png For Medical Practitioners - Not another pill!! - Pill 10 is an uncanny lookalike of my 94-year-old friend’s blood pressure tablet, taken twice a day with meals. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/c46cb760-ae84-4a2c-ba1d-a25c1b498364/24.png For Medical Practitioners - Not another pill!! - Now that it’s obvious I’ve survived Pill 1, Dose 1, I begin to consider what this chemical demon might do to my body over time. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/b0c0abc0-15a8-400f-b459-ffa41284e84c/13.png For Medical Practitioners - Not another pill!! - Grimly, I gaze at Pills 5-8, the enormous purple ones. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/92b786ea-1077-45a8-8a12-5711cb6db15c/25.png For Medical Practitioners - Not another pill!! - She was wrong though, I realise (sometimes). https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/74c4ab2d-34f7-47d9-8301-86fa9c4569e3/32.png For Medical Practitioners - Not another pill!! - Like a teenager dropping a long-acting sleeping pill in his tea. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/57ab629e-6094-4d86-9aef-87dccb1c2bae/47.png For Medical Practitioners - Not another pill!! - Rather than see pills as beneficial, in a crazy replication of childhood, I humanise them, perceiving them as threats. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/f5ae8212-be3e-4fef-bd1a-1e140f0cfb31/pills-g5c816e727_1920.jpg For Medical Practitioners - Not another pill!! - Back in the kitchen, I eye my Webster-pack. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/85231379-7461-4598-81e3-a4a2e98f30f2/12.png For Medical Practitioners - Not another pill!! - And today I don’t need Pill 15 (the “take when needed” one. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/451d5cf2-483c-4d54-85b5-b8b25f6f8030/1.png For Medical Practitioners - Not another pill!! - Bleary eyed, I leap off the lounge, responsive to my iPhone’s aggravating ping. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/affa4f0f-dd6d-4131-9afb-f6902b4fc466/45.png For Medical Practitioners - Not another pill!! - Pill 11, the immunosuppressant one, maddeningly adds cuts, scrapes and the common cold to my pre-existing fears of assault, fire and assorted other things. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/41f2e5d3-8337-4118-8d9d-5912fd29f423/46.png For Medical Practitioners - Not another pill!! - First, I stress about the potential side effects; my mind creatively describing my future with Pill 1, semi based on its consumer information leaflet: https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/ec8405cd-f79e-4039-870e-a8ce7e3ba86e/14.png For Medical Practitioners - Not another pill!! - Finally, scrutinising my webster pack, gulping down Pills 2-4, I’m done. https://www.refractinghope.com/for-medical-practitioners/how-much-danger monthly 0.5 2022-09-22 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/7f1da8c4-914b-411c-92a1-595220ac1951/16.png For Medical Practitioners - How much danger will these scars bring to my care? - I’ve regretted it. Sometimes. That day (several to be honest), I disfigured my arm. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5e278a473d568c693832461b/11240cf4-4f2d-4fb2-982c-db7eb2cfea28/rat-gceaf8ac5e_1920.jpg For Medical Practitioners - How much danger will these scars bring to my care? - Feeling trapped is my worst PTSD trigger and, to me, hospitals are one big cage. 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