Poetry — Refracting Hope

$Refracting Hope$

Poetry

These poems are a mix of dark and light, the serious and less so - which shows you see, that PTSD is not all of me! Trauma, grief, parodies of songs, frustration with study –

I write about pretty much anything.

You’ll find the poems about child abuse in the Trigger Warning section of the site.

Each blog post is licensed under the Creative Commons Attribution-NoDerivatives 4.0 International License.

Beast

Beast

Remember that there is a hurt child inside me.

Hope Gordon8 July 2020child abuse, childhood trauma, impact of abuse, inner scream, inner pain, PTSD, PTSD scream, post traumatic stress disorder, hope gordon, abuse PTSD

Enchanted beach

Enchanted beach

A beach holiday.

Hope Gordon8 July 2020beach, joy of nature, hope gordon

What miracles look like

What miracles look like

Miracles can turn the unloved into the loved.

Hope Gordon8 July 2020child abuse, childhood trauma, inner pain, impact of abuse, PTSD, post traumatic stress disorder, hope gordon, wolf, inner wolf

Dark haunted

Dark haunted

Can light drive darkness out?

Hope Gordon19 June 2020impact of abuse, inner pain, child abuse, childhood trauma, PTSD, post traumatic stress disorder, hope gordon

Kid's views

Kid's views

Three short poems about a child’s view of the world

Hope Gordon19 June 2020joy of nature, beach child, play, child's view of world, hope gordon

My destroyed head

My destroyed head

I’ve often wondered why my head just doesn’t seem to work properly.

Hope Gordon10 June 2020impact of abuse, childhood trauma, child abuse, PTSD, post traumatic stress disorder, hope gordon

A few of my unwanted things

A few of my unwanted things

‘To do’ lists.

Hope Gordon10 June 2020work, employment, hope gordon

Traitors

Traitors

They betrayed me and then I betrayed them.

Hope Gordon31 May 2020childhood trauma, child abuse, impact of abuse, abuse relationship, PTSD, post traumatic stress disorder, hope gordon, inner pain

Online study

Online study

Online university study - I hated it

Hope Gordon31 May 2020online study, university, university internet, hope gordon, study problems, university problems

Staff meetings

Staff meetings

Sometimes eating seems more productive than meetings.

Hope Gordon31 May 2020work, employment, hope gordon

He is doing fine

He is doing fine

One ventilator, two people: A reflection on COVID-19.

Hope Gordon13 May 2020covid, coronavirus, covid-19, covid ventilator, covid death, covid choice, covid we had to choose, hope gordon, covid doctor, covid hospital

Silence

Silence

I was betrayed, but I am also a betrayer.

Hope Gordon13 May 2020abuse conflicted, child abuse, childhood trauma, impact of abuse, inner pain, hope gordon, PTSD, post traumatic stress disorder, abuse relationship

Wasted

Wasted

Not worth nothing.

Hope Gordon10 May 2020impact of abuse, childhood trauma, child abuse, inner pain, PTSD, post traumatic stress disorder, hope gordon

I hate her/him/it. I think. Maybe.

I hate her/him/it. I think. Maybe.

Wolf is the good in me. She is lovable, and I am not. I hate Wolf. Maybe.

Hope Gordon1 May 2020wolf, inner wolf, impact of abuse, childhood trauma, child abuse, hope gordon, PTSD, post traumatic stress disorder, inner pain

Being Wolf in a human world

Being Wolf in a human world

Wolf needs no one, but it is hard to be Wolf

Hope Gordon1 May 2020wolf, impact of abuse, inner pain, inner wolf, childhood trauma, child abuse, PTSD, post traumatic stress disorder, hope gordon, abuse PTSD

Assignment deadline

Assignment deadline

Organisation was never my strong point when it came to university assignments.

Hope Gordon26 April 2020online study, university, university study, university problems, hope gordon

A fear-filled Christmas at work

A fear-filled Christmas at work

Too many people have had to work over Christmas

Hope Gordon20 April 2020work, employment, Christmas at work, hope gordon

Lost teeth

Lost teeth

An early lesson in greed.

Hope Gordon20 April 2020lost teeth, tooth fairy, child's view of world, hope gordon, lesson in greed

Branded

Branded

My future is stained with my own blood

Hope Gordon15 April 2020impact of abuse, inner pain, childhood trauma, child abuse, hope gordon, PTSD, post traumatic stress disorder

Lecturer's lament

Lecturer's lament

The life of a university lecturer

Hope Gordon15 April 2020university, work, employment, university problems, university study, hope gordon, university lecturer